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I want to write something deep and profound that will mean something to me in the future. But the truth is that I just feel like life is unfair and totally sucks!

My ex has a new girlfriend - two and a half years after we broke up, so it's not like he rushed into anything. But it still bothers me, because I  never stopped loving him. And also, I wanted to beat him to the punch. "Love's not a competition, but I'm winning" and all that.

Right at this moment, I feel fine. I wasn't when I found out: It was like we broke up all over again. But maybe this needed to happen for me to really move on. I've started moving on, but now I'll throw myself in headfirst. I deleted him from Instagram. Probably should've done that ages ago. Social media is truly the worst thing in the world when it comes to realtionships, so good riddance.

I'm sure the next few weeks will be a total yoyo-experience, and the one person whose arms I need around me won't be here.

We are not in control of our own happiness. Don't let anyone tell you that. If that were true, we'd be happiest alone. And I don't mean single, I mean ALONE. No friends, no family, no nothing.